How I know God Exists:
I heard my babies heartbeat for the first time at about our 5 week checkup appointment with our first midwife.
I was in awe as I heard my daughters rapid beating heart through the doppler.
I thought to myself, “wow what intelligence there must be within my child that innately all of these cells have been developing and organizing themselves together to form a heart that beats at the exact right speed to circulate the blood.
I saw my baby for the first time via an ultarsound at about 6 months. I was able to see a well defined nose, lips, eyes, arms, legs, and spine.
I thought to myself, “what is that which was able to form my child from just 2 cells into the miraculous creation I was seeing?” The only answer I could come with is both a vague and profound one; “INNATE INBORN INTELLIGENCE.”
I had the honor of watching my wife labor for 12-15 hours, I was in awe of the whole process. I watched as our little baby was stuck in the right lower abdomnial quadrant, with its rearend down, feet up, and head about at the belly button level – slowly shift into a centered position in preperation for birth.
I thought to myself, how does my wife’s body know to do that? How does it know to contract and contract, and contract some more until the baby was out… The only answer I could come up with was INTELLIGENCE.
I watched God work through the Midwife and the Doulas as they surrounded me and my wife for hours at a time without any breaks. I watched as they provided water, cut up fruit, massage, hip compression, and most importantly, words of encouragement…
I thought to myself, “what is this that has brought us all togther to form a massive supporting foudation for my wife and unborn child? The only answer I could come up with was LOVE. God is Love, I thought to myself…
I watched as the little rearend of my tiny little one slowly came down with each contraction, ever so slowly, and ever so gently, so all of my wifes tissues could slowly stretch as needed without tearing.
I thought to myself, what is it that guides this process. I could only ever say, “INBORN INTELLIGENCE.”
And, finally I watched as the baby was completely born, the midwife cradled her and handed her to my wife with the cord still attached.
70 Trillion cells later there was my baby, beautiful as ever and then I heard the greatest sound any father could hear for their first time and that was my babies little cry as it took a breath of air for the first time.
I thought to myself. “This is the first of millions of breaths my child will take in her life time without even thinking about it!” What could possibly control this kids ability to breathe without thinking about it, other than a control mechanism that is guided by an AWE INSPIRING INTELLIGENCE?!
I felt the pulse through the Umbilical Cord keep going for at least 10 minutes after my child was born, and for the first time in a long time I felt time stand still.
Everything slowed down and for the first time I got to cradle my baby and saw the alertness in her face and eyes. She was well aware of her surroundings. And, then I almost died, bc she looked at me with those Big Angelic eyes of hers for the first time – I felt my heart stop. Tears started to flow from my eyes and I whispered to myself, “Thank You God.”
If there were ever any doubts about God in my mind, they left on Friday night at 11:59pm when I saw my daughter for the first time.
There is nothing in the world that could ever come close to that feeling. Nothing I have ever done or will do will ever compare to that.
I feel so blessed beyond words could describe…
Reckless Love played in the back ground as my wife labored.
The beginning lyrics are such:
“Before I spoke a word, You were singing over me You have been so, so good to me. Before I took a breath, You breathed Your life in me. You have been so, so kind to me,
Oh, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God
Oh, it chases me down, fights ’til I’m found, leaves the ninety-nine
I couldn’t earn it, and I don’t deserve it, still, You give Yourself away
Oh, the overwhelming, never-ending, reckless love of God, yeah.”
